Have you ever had a time where you felt that you didn’t put your best foot forward? Possibly it was in a relationship with a family member, spouse, or friend. Or it may have been a random interaction or something that occurred in a workplace. But the only problem was you didn’t realize it in the moment – not until later on in time or life. We all have circumstances in our life where things didn’t quite go the way we hoped it would and we become deeply aware of our own faults.
But what do you do when you are deeply aware of these areas in your life but they seem to far away to recover? Perhaps something happened twenty years ago and the person is long gone and saying “I’m sorry” is not even possible. Or possibly, the repair is not something that can be done by outward action but rather it’s an inward introspection that is needed.
In Psalms 32:5, David comes to a place of “Finally”.
“Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide them. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone.” Psalms 32:5
Being deeply aware should drive us to the place of “finally”. This is the place where we step aside from our own desire to hide the areas that are broken in our lives. This is the place that drives us to our knees and even allows the tears to flow. This the place where we realize that God desires for us to be deeply aware – but yet still be able to recover.
Our hearts are not always mended by receiving the forgiveness of someone else. It may not be possible for whatever reason. But there is a mend that happens when we “finally” forgive other and ourselves. When we find a place to confess and release the guilt, the shame and the pain. Don’t run away from being deeply aware. Simply confess and ask God how you can find the path to recover.